Of the unexpected events in life

Life is never certain... I've learnt my lesson... the hard way. I realised that for the past weeks, i have been bottling tons of feelings and emotions in myself. It was that bad till the extent that i felt this unusual pain from my heart. I hope it's not something serious... Since my last visit to the school's counsellor, I suspect myself of having this mild depression. The symptons of depression seems to apply to me in almost every aspect.

"Depression is an emotional disorder which can result in fatigue, a loss of interest in life, insomnia or hypersomnia, a disturbance of appetite and an inability to work and function normally in everyday life. There are certain less common forms of severe depression which fall in the category of psychosis"

I don't know when it started but at certain stage of my life, i find that there is nothing to look forward in life. The constant fatigue and the inability to concentrate had affected my studies, my relationship with my girlfriend and my social network of friends. I want to break out of this.. I want to be healthy, i want to happy, i want to enjoy my everyday, i want to contribute to the society, i want to be useful... I'm trying to embark on this recovery journey myself, it's going to be tough but as long as i can make the change, i am able to break free from this dull period of my life. I need a daily schedule, i need to meet up with more friends, i need to source for a job, i need to make my day fruitful.

Having said all that. I need to first define my goals. Let's start with the short term goals first.
1) Improve my stamina and runnning timing. ( Min 3 runs a week, distance approx 3km )
2) Work on improving my memory skills
3) Pick up the habit of reading
4) Work on my critical thinking skills
5) Conform to a 7 hours sleeping habit
6) Post daily reflection
7) Learn to pay attention to details
8) Drink more water
9) Improve my skin conditions
10) Smile more often
11) Not to stay at home so often
12) Release all the negative thoughts

My short term goals seems good and ready to be implemented! Let's do it. There are so many things to look forward in life. Be happy. Live Happy. Start Happy. At the same time, i need to get in touch with my inner self, to really identify what i enjoy doing in life.


"Whatever happens, happens for a reason"

the topic will be continue in the next blog post... till then